My loves, how is life? Hope you all had a fantastic week and are ready for the weekend! My week has been a little depressing. Rain, grey skies, crazy cold for May, boring work to do etc etc. But on the bright side; it’s weekend so time to leave it all behind! The sun is back in town and so is my mood ;-). So to come right to the point I wanted to go; no, I am not always a happy kid. This is one of the questions I get asked so often, but of course I have my lows too. Yet, I always try to create something out of it, like writing down my thoughts in this blogpost.
In general I am a happy and positive person. It is not only about the way I am or I was born. I taught myself to be like this and I believe anybody can do that. Life if crazy and can go in all kind of directions. We all know highs and we all know lows. I would consider myself very lucky with such a good life, surrounded by the few amazing people I love. I have a job which I – usually – like and have a beautiful place to live in the city I love. What can I worry about?
Well, feeling lost in some way. Don’t knowing my path for a moment can freak me out. I am such a control freak and I find it so hard to let go sometimes, accept the moment and let things be for a while. As some of you may know I got bullied in high school a lot, and this causes a never ending insecurity and feeling to prove myself. Really, I try to be more secure and satisfied with who I am and love myself, but deeply inside there is still this small girl who also wants to be loved. The last few weeks I lost it a little. I felt like I wanted to be this irresponsible child again, making stupid decisions and late nights. Not the grown up adult I have been living the past few months.
So, to come to my point; some people might look like they have everything under control, why they don’t. Nobody is perfect and nobody is always happy. With the social influence comparison I felt like relieving some pressure and be real. And how can I be more real than in a Podcast where I got asked some deep questions? Yes that’s right! I did my first podcast ever, which was for Fashion Potluck and I think the outcome is really cool. If you have the time, listen to it and hopefully get inspired by the lines I wrote here and what I tell in the Podcast.
At last – nope I am not done with writing yet – I need to say something about these photos and my outfit here. These photos were taken by my mom right after our Staycation at Hotel Arena. My mom is the best in capturing me in the best way possible. I love how the photos turned out and feel proud to share them with you today :-). Also, I am just obsessing over this outfit. It is such a classic Marlene Dietrich inspired outfit. A style that never goes out of fashion! Especially the Zanellato bagis a true dream, don’t you think? Okay, that was it for now. See u soon!